Even when it’s life and death, just breathe… whew

When life gets tough, don’t let it get to you. Take a time to think over the situation and work around it. There’s is no use in whining about it the past. What’s happened has happened, just make the best of the situation. Today I left my History notebook/folder at school. Went to get it (luckily the janitors let me in) and realized that my binder wasn’t there. I started to get really pissed at myself. I nearly threw a temper tantrum. Oh I’m sorry, did I say nearly? I meant I did threw a temper tantrum. Of course it wasn’t public, I just cried my guts out in my bedroom. In the end, I took a big breather and thought about my next move. I could either, not study, study with what I have (stupid textbook (psh, my golden notebook has so much more good stuff in there) and try to get a passing grade, call a friend, keep on crying and sobbing about it or whine to a friend what bad luck I have. Well I definitely wasn’t going to blow off my History test, I was soooooo not going to whine about my mistake to someone or sob in a corner, the best thing to do was to do what I can and grab good notes from the textbook and call a friend to help me study. I probably won’t call a friend, due to the fact I don’t like relying on other people. However I am gonna pass high school or not (well not really, but i want to keep my average up you know!), life and death situation and that was the only smart move I could possibly make. O gosh my life sucks. And here I am talking about it on my blog when I could do some good studying -_-”.  Ok ima start my studying, please give me some feedback on what you’d do in my situation. I’ll consider them the next time it happens again (trust me, not the first time….or the third).

Here’s Anna Nalick- “Just Breathe”

Not Caring what Others Think is Easy Said than Done =/

As a preteen, a teen, and coming to being an adult in 2 years, not caring what others think is no easy task. To tell you the truth, I care SO much about what others think of me, so I’ve never share any personal information to other like my marks in school, my ideas, my thoughts etc. to keep my rep or status.  I kinda had a “paranoia” that everyone’s opinions are more important than mine and that if I don’t think a certain way, everyone will avoid me. I guess you can say that I afraid of being a loner. However, trying to be like everyone else just made me boring. This made my self esteem really down, and got me into a depressed emo phase. Even though everyone sees me as the kind, happy person I show myself to be, it’s totally not that way. I feel that whenever someone’s opinion goes north I feel as though I must go north as well. I always thought I was an individual totally different from everyone, but in reality I am actually no different than a herd of sheep following the leader. This has got me thinking that I’ve totally muted myself; I shutted off my opinion, my voice, and who I am. Later, I thought to myself, why would I care so much about how others think of me. Bam, it hit me. I had a habit and felt the need of trying to impress/please everyone while forgetting that the most important person to please is myself. So for those who are feeling the same way as me, forget everyone else. Choose to live life for yourself and not others, because when you live as yourself, it is much easier than trying be someone you’re not just so you can please everyone. Trust me, not everyone in this world is gonna like you for who you are, but that’s their lost  if they can’t accept they way you were meant to be. You may not be the most popular person, or may just be a person with only a few friends but as long as you know they are the ones who stick through the ups and downs with you because you’re Y-O-U.

Here’s Lindsay Lohan “I Decide”